hey, its been a while
i dont have many reasons to see you anymore
i guess thats a good thing
its only at times like this
when im lying in bed and cant sleep
that you appear to me
a face i hardly recognize
a voice trying not to be heard
the medicine helped with that
was it selfish of us?
when you disappeared
a lot of people were upset
some of them forgave me
even if they still miss you
if you came back suddenly
would they miss me?
i dont think they understand
one of us had to go
and if it were me
you might have followed
then neither of us would be here
did you die, then?
that doesnt seem right
youre not exactly hiding either
i can still call you if i must
ask you to come back for a while
but its getting harder to reach you
and these days its unnecessary anyway
the medicine helps with that
while youre here
i want to thank you
youve certainly thanked me plenty
thanks for finding me
thanks for letting me stay with you
thanks for protecting me
thanks for loving me
loving me enough to disappear
i still love you too
good night